OH MAN! i'm like the only one who keep the blog alive. WHERE IS THE REST! M.I.A ahh. ):

okay, later i'm meeting him. shall have a talk. but dont know how will things work. ): maybe we both remains silent? hais. he seems not to care for me anymore.

will you still say good morning to me when you message me in the morning?
will you still called me baby when you message me?
will you still say i love you or i miss you to me?
will you still sing twinkle twinkle little stars to me?
will you still peluk peluk me?
will you still be the one who always walk on my right?
will you still be the mr sarcastic?
will you still be so crazy with me?
will you still say all those sweet words that you used to say?
will you still say sorry when i'm angry with you?
will you still meet me to go NUH together?
will you still allow me to go fetch you from work?
will you still sing together will me?
will you still be my thunder?
WILL YOU STILL LOVE ME LIKE YOU USED TO? ):

alien, you've changed. to someone who i'm so unfamiliar with.
look at the way you sms me and the way you talk to me.
drifted so far apart compared to the past.
you aint the one who i once knew. no, you are not!

i wont say anything because its not my fault. maybe you think that i have nothing better to do, childish, or anything that you could think of.

monday, you asked me to accompany you to apply your driving license on wednesday. okay, i agree. of cause, because i want to spend time with you.

tuesday, you told teacher you can pay back 1hour on wednesday. after that on that night.also never tell me anything. i message you whether tmr are we still going you never reply. 9pm plus you replied that you cant call me because your chest pain. you never reply me question and i ask again. you said no, you need to replace. my dear, if i never ask you are you not going to tell me when i am bring my clothes to change and everything uhhhs.

wednesday, we meet at the bus stop, never talk. after that, you left at 3pm! if you can leave at that time then why cant you dont go.

until today, saturday. we never contact. (: because i know that you DONT EVEN CARE. right!

where is the alien then i first known. where is the sweetest words that you used to say to me. alien, JUST SAY WHAT YOU THINK.

afterall, it just tell me, i'm still right about the concept of guys.

it just tears me up inside.






tonight will be the night that i will fall for you OVER AGAIN.

On the day i found out you loved me,i thought tat u would be mine forever....
Forever?wats deos it mean to u......

On the day that we we held hands and were loving one another.....
did tat mean anything to you.....

On the day u asked me to be yours.....
did you really mean wat u said?

On the days you went missing and left me worried,
did u noe tat i was waiting for u.....

On the day i saw you.....
did you noe how hurt i was......

On the day you said no.....
did you know how much more u have broken my heart....

On the day you kissed me and held my hand again...
did you know how much it meant to me....

On the week u ignored me...
did u noe how much it affected me....

On the day u said it meant nth....
did you noe how much it ripped me apart.....

On the months tat u have hurt me....
did u noe.......i loved u.....eventhough i was played by u.....

what can i do, to keep you by my side?
what can i do, to make myself the girl you love?
what can i do, to make you love me?
what can i do, to allow me to stay by in your heart only?
what can i do, to make you smile everyday?
what can i do, to have you saying all the sweet words to me?
what can i do, to make you miss me every second & minute?
what can i do, to make you hold on to me without letting off?
what can i do, i really don't know how..

ddddddddDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD..

morning shift today. same with alien and amirah. haha. when bukit panjang to walk and eat. (:
someone super sarcastic today, yes! i mean SUPER sarcastic. really cannot tahan sia. ARGGHH! better stop that by tmr. if not.. HAHA! good luck. :D haha. i'm being sarcastic here too. (: so tired sia. think going to sleep soon. waiting for my song. (x ILY!

do you think you will have time to care for me after you work? ): sad sad. alien, i know you, not just since yesterday,

D here AGAIN!

hais. khreeslynne, dont think too much okay? we are not. (: i told you already.

anyway, that alien never come attachment today. sick. ): HAIS! yesterday just quarrel with him. oh, tian ar. alien, actually i'm not angry, just disappointed and dont know what to say. and when you told me you got nothing to say, i'm damn sad, really nothing to say. today, you told me you are sick, i'm so worried about you. message you never reply. wait and wait and wait. wanted to call you but i scared you are sleeping. finally, you called. was like, YAY-NESS!! haha. but not even a few minutes,. you hang up. ): until now.. i'm still waiting..

ALIEN, I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU AND I NEED YOU!!

i love you and thats all i really know.

i don noe y i am saying tis but i feel left out from the group.......i can tell n c tat u 3 are say more bonded together......i noe tat i don spend so much time wit u guys but tis is wat i feel.....n i jus wanna say it out...is there is smting u all wanna tell me?cause i am open to all ans....issit my attitude?character?wat issit?i dn mind if u tell me directly wat u feel abt me...

firstly,my dear daph don tink too much k.i am not miishing ue thats why i stay back.there is a few reasons why i am there.ue should know why now liao rite.i am goin mad soon.reali damn mad. can someone help me soon before i drown and die a tragic death.pls i am like reali being killed and torture by him slowly.i cant imagine wat will i do if i were to be in the same group and cubicle wit him tmr.i tink i might just go kill my self perhaps.sigh why does tis have to happen to me sia.cant ue just give me a second chance.i don even bare to scold ue lo wats more shouting at ue.have been tinking bout it for days and i still don get it.if ppl were to say bout ue i will just say back and protect ue one sia.why are ue doin tis to me time and time again.its like worse den death lor.its like slow death sia.pls can ue stop all tis before i reali go bonkers.i reali don wan to see ue get hurt wats other den shouting at ue.watever it is,ue believe it or not up to ue but wat i wan to say and wan ue to know i have alreasy finish saing.

i will continue to love ue and protect ue as ur guardian angel no matter wat ue do to me.although loving ue is tough but still i still will.and i will always.

I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand.
So now I leave you without a sound except my heart shattering as it hits the ground.

Love is like an eternal flame,
Once it is lit, it will continue to burn for all time.

Love isn't blind, it just only sees what matters.
Love is a moment that lasts forever...
You will know the real meaning of love when you fall in love.

If a tear fell from my eyes,
everytime i wished you were with me I would have a puddle of fallen wishes at my feet.

If you love someone more than anything,
Then distance only matters to the mind, not to the heart.

If i had a single flower for everytime i thought of you i could walk forever in my garden.

When i saw you i was afraid to talk to you...
when i talked to you i was afraid to hold you...
When i hold you i was afraid to love you..
Now that i love you im afraid to lose you.

Telling someone you love them comes from the heart.
The place that made you love them from the start.

True love never leaves the heart,
so if you dont love me now, you didnt love me then.

The Hardest Thing In Life Isn't Finding The One You Luv,
Its Making The One You Luv...Luv you Back

I Cry For The Times That You Were Almost Mine,
I Cry For The Memories I've Left Behind,
I Cry For The Pain, The Lost, The Old, the New..
I Now Cry For The Times I Thought I Had You

I don't know weather to smile cause you're happier with her or cry cause you're not mine.
Everyday i tell myself we're better off without each other,
But then every morning I wake up and realize I love you more then the day before.

I want to be happy because ur happy.
But how can I be happy knowing im not the one making u smile.

Sticks and stones may break my bones and tear my skin apart,
But nothing hurts me more than you,Because you broke my heart.
It takes 3 seconds to say 'I Love You' but a lifetime to prove it.

Love is friendship, friendship is love.
If love fails, friendship should remain.
Becos friendship is the foundation of love.

You make me smile for no reason whatsoever,
You make me laugh at the unfunniest things,
But most of all, you make me love you...
When I shouldn't be loving you.

You will know when you really love someone.
When you want him to be happy even if his happiness means you are not a part of it.

Don't be too good i will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too sweet, I might fall.

It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...
And all for love, and nothing for reward.
A complete need should not exist...love, life in common with loved ones?

Love is
being happy for the other person
when they are happy
being sad for the person
when they are sad
being together in good times
and being together in bad times
Love is the source of strength

Love is
being honest with yourself at all times
being honest with the other person at all times
telling, listening, respecting the truth
and never pretending
Love is the source of reality

Love is
an understanding so complete that
you feel as if you are a part
of the other person
accepting the other person
just the way they are
and not trying to change them
to be something else
Love is the source of unity

Love is
the freedom to pursue your own desires
while sharing your experiences
with the other person
the growth of one individual alongside of
and together with the growth
of another individual
Love is the source of success

Love is
the excitement of planning things together
the excitement of doing things together
love is the source of the future

Love is
the fury of the storm
the calm in the rainbow
Love is the source of passion

Love is
giving and taking in a daily situation
being patient with each other's
needs and desires
Love is the source of sharing

Love is
knowing that the other person
will always be with you
regardless of what happens
missing the other person when they are away
but remaining near in heart at all times
Love is the source of security

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?

Why?
Because it's . . . . . . LOVE.
"Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy;
love does not parade itself, it is not puffed up;
does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked,
thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bear all things, believes all things, hopes all things,
endures all things. Love never fails."

HERE COMES THE D!

lalala, yesterday was the last day at ward 43. (: thanks to my 4 angels - amirah, evelyn, grace and jojo helping me when i need help the most! then that alien dont know go back to his outerspace for what. always wont help me. ARGHH! what to do!! hais. haha. A.L.D.H was working afternoon shift and the G dont know why siao siao come and work from 7am - 8pm. i think she miss me too much yea. HAHA! after work, the 5 of us went to imm. TO EAT OF CAUSE! haa. burger king. (: its like been a long long time since the 5 of us went out together yea. like FINALLY!! :D around 10pm plus, some gtg. the L went back first, the G and A go take bus. me and him plan to take bus at the interchange then walk walk walk.. he said send me home then take bus. O BE QUEK! send more la, see, reach home so late. laughs! he is working now. ): I MISS HIM!

i am sorry if i walked away from u guys ystday...i did not mean to do it...it's jus tat my anger and sadness is always overtaking me....wen he said tat it meant nth on wat happened on sat,i jus felt very angry cause to me i felt played....i was hoping tat he will say somthing like....i did tat because i wanna work tings out between us....but no...i was hoping and hoping...tat he will come back to me...becuase i still do love him very much but y did he choose to hurt me?he still could laugh wen i was talking to him...i noe tat everyting takes time...but everyday i c him, it's jus like killing me slowly...i feel very played and hurt by wat he said and have done...i am such a fool....today is the 1month we broke up....all i wanna say to him is.......fash y did u do tis me?y are u hurting me...ure a player i noe...but do u haf to do tis?....23rd june...the day where everyting started...24th june...we hold hands and were happy....31st jul u asked me to be ure gf...u said u won't hurt....as the months pass ure feelings started to fade...31st aug...u forgot our anniversery....sept 18 was our last conversation and u wen m.i.a....on 7th oct...ure fren msged me and said tat he could nt call or msg me because u lost to a bet and chose ure bicycle over me....u said tat u had no feelings for me...oct 15...ure confused....and said no tat u don wna continue....nov 8...u asked me out..i thought u still loved me....1wk i hoped for an ans..and all i get is....wat happend on sat meant nth..he played wit me and made me hope....do u guys tink i won't be so hurt by all tis?..i am like tis because of wat is happening...if only i could understand and move on...

WAh so long then i blog..im so bad seh..
k..hm tiz few i getting tired easily and also like going to sleep only..
I do have a person that i love much that was her DAPHNE..
baby i love you..i really dun want to lose her..
i am so bad i usualy make her angry and upsad easily..
i know i am very NAUGHTY..
that was who i am..
hahahahahah....
k gtg wah i so damn tired again ...

BABY DAPHNE I LOVE YOU!!!

if only we were given another chance to love one another..i will be happier....but it jus seems like another game...i love u and i don noe y i still do....if only i could understand and move on...i jus hope u guys understand wat i am going through.....

Owning a blog is good..as we can express our feelings out..becos blog is the oni way we express things out..so far oni the G,A and D updating..the L and H??maybe busy..
its easy to fall in love and everything seems wonderful..but its hard to move on when ur heart is really broken..forgetting someone is not that easy..it took time..maybe a year or so on..love is so sweet that u would not want to let go..but love is so bitter when ur hurt by someone that u really love the most..orite people..no matter how much we feel hurt rite now..we still need to tell ourself that life have to move on..have confidence in oneself...

he is in his lala land

and i am right here missing him. ):

if that is what you want,

i will open my house door, walk to the lift, press 1, walk out to the road and RUN!

D here. 1 word to describe my feeling = SAD!

is that how you miss someone? words means nothing. really nothing. just bullshit. (:

monday, prepaid no money? does that mean you can do care about me for the whole pathetic day?
tuesday, just ask me to top up your prepaid card. ask me to help then message me. if i dont help you , will you contact me?
wednesday, i message you at night. you replied go out eat dinner. and nothing else. hello?! dont want reply just say.
thursday, i am tired of it. ):

if you miss someone, no matter how tired you are, you also will go find that person or just give a call will do. but did you? go work not tired?

HAHA! i think if you all saw my face you guys will look tired. right people? how sad! :D

SADED!!
i miss you.

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